| Location | Leeds |
| Age | 19 years |
| Cause of Death | Overdose |
| Date of Birth | 01/01/1985 |
| Date of Death | 01/01/2004 |
| Visitors | 1,632 since 22/09/2008 |
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allan was a lovely boy with a life of torment aand torture, he went though sexual,physical and
mental abuse from his farher and step mother, he never recovered from what happened to him through
his life, and got shifted from pillar to post always putting his family first he loved any body and
would do anygthing for anyone, which unfortunatly was his downfall people took advantage and used
him, he finally took to smoking canabis to relax and forget what was happening and the past, he met
a man who told hin he could help him thinking he could he put his trust in him, he ended up getting
beaten up and smoking heroin as anypone knows it only takes ones, allan injected on his birthday
after seeing his family because he missed and wanted to be with them so much he left oiur family
home at 2am 1/1/2004 at 9am a police man came to our door to tell us, this precious boy of ours this
special man and brother finally escaped the evils of this world noone can hurt him now although he
is missing out on a niece and nephew he wantches them closes and holds them tightly on a night ill
join him one day and we'll be together again best of friends best of brothers and the other half of
my soul and heart we'll meet again one day xxxxxxxxxxx
i went to see you, anger raged through me, it was as if u were forgotten darling, i wiped the headstone like wiping your tears talked to you while you teased me with the spiders, i know your hear with me in our own special way, i put your flowers on to make you look better, but reality hits the only thing that will make anything better is no stone no grave nor no words but you, holding my 1 year old playing fooball with lucas congradulating me on my new pregnancy and bringin your children which never came around ...
if only ...
maybe i should have ...
lost words no matter how spoken makes no difference my heart bleeds when i see you in lucas i want to grab and shake you out of him, i want my brother with me not my son, but then a small comfort knowing u r alwas here and cannot foget you face
does that mean lucs has the same fate
help me see my future help me love, and be loved
guide me and choose my mistakes
i didnt carry u, u always carried me
things will neer change
always one foot print in the sand x
.•*´ ♥ `*•. I'm Safe Here In Heaven .•*´ ♥ `*•.
As I sit here safe in Heaven
And watch you every day,
I try and let you know with signs
I never went away.
I hear you when you're laughing
And watch you as you sleep,
I even place my arm's round you
To calm you as you weep.
I see you wish the days away
As you beg to have me home,
So I try to send you messages
So you know you're not alone.
Don't feel guilty that you have a life
That was denied to me,
Oh, Heaven is truly beautiful
Just you wait and see.
Please live your life and laugh again
Enjoy yourself, be free,
Then I'll know with every breath you take
you're taking one for me.
~ It's Raining In My Heart ~
Thunder and lighting
Then torrential rain,
It's raining in my heart now
Because I can't see you again.
Life was always bright for us
Even when it rained,
But since the day you died
The sun light from my life has drained.
There's no brightness in my life now
No sun on my window pains,
My life is forever dull
Because I can't see you again.
copyright� Ingrid Aspey 23/7/09.
xxxxxxx ANGEL OF MINE, xxxxxxxxxxxxx
No words I write can ever say
How much I miss you everyday.
As time goes by, the loneliness grows,
How I miss you, nobody knows.
I think of you in silence,
I often speak your name.
But all I have are memories,
And a photo in a frame.
No one sees me weep.
But the love I have for you,
Is in my heart, and mine to keep.
I have never stopped loving you
And I know I never will.
Deep inside my heart,
You are with me still.
Heartaches, this world are many,
But mine is worse than any.
My heart still aches, as I whisper low,
"I need you... and miss you so."
The things we feel so deeply
Are often the hardest things to say.
But I just can't keep quiet anymore,
So I'll tell you any ways.
There is a place within my heart
That no one else can fill.
I love you and I always will!
SKY BUNNIES
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(')_(')
The sky is full of bunny clouds
So soft and fat and white,
I wonder if they're hiding eggs
For angels to find with delight.
Because angels like Easter as well, you know,
And there's no reason why
There shouldn't be an Easter hunt
In meadows in the sky.
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-{*~*~*~*~*~*HAPPY~*~*~*~*~*~}
-{~*~*~*~*~*EASTER*~*~*~*~*~*}
-{*~*~*~*~*~*ANGEL~*~*~*~*~*~}
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god takes care of heavens garden
where he has many angel flowers
he waters each one fondly
with his very own special powers
loving each one tenderly
loving each one just right
the angel flowers watch over us
gods garden must be a beautiful sight xxxxxx
been a long time
Hi allan its been a long time dont think you were far from my thoughts,
am moving away from mandy thank god!
just thought i should write to you and let you know am missing you as always
i went to church the other week something the preist said, he gave up his son for us, and we wont know his pain,
your not my son but my brother and i do feel his pain and you know what i question him every day to why he took you from me
i love you top p[ieces and it just feels cruel to him takin you away from me so why did he i ask myself, i nearly balled my eyes out when he said that
it never gets easier does it and every little thing your missin just pulls my heart to pieces i hope you like your wreath
help me through my hard time at the minute seems everything is going bad for me at the minute i have no car because it is broke io car even afford to move
money eh???
well at least you dont need money where you are, i just want things to go smoothly for once for me never seems to though does it i go down smelling of crap and never come up roses
maybe one day and that will be when i see you again
love you always xxx
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God saw you getting tired
And a cure was not to be.
So he put his arms around you,
And whispered "Come to Me".
With tearful eyes we watched you,
We watched you fade away.
Although we loved you dearly,
We could not make you stay.
A golden heart stopped beating,
Hard working hands now rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us
He only takes the best.
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Life is but a stopping place,
A pause in what's to be,
A resting place along the road,
To sweet eternity.
We all have different journeys,
Different paths along the way,
We are all meant to learn some things,
But never meant to stay.
Our destination is a place,
Far greater than we know,
For some the journey's quicker,
For some the journey's slow.
But when the journey finally ends,
We'll claim a great reward,
And find an everlasting peace,
Together with the Lord.
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Little did we know that morning
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
But you did not go alone.
For part of us went with you,
The day God called you home.
You left us peaceful memories,
Your love is still our guide.
And though we cannot see you,
You are always by our side.
Our family chain is broken
And nothing seems the same.
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.
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Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum
R.I.P
Reading your story brought a tear to my eye its so crawl i hope ur now at rest darling. hope your looking over all your familyxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Xx Pass this on to all your friends xX
If I could catch a rainbow
I would do it just for you
And share with you its beauty
On the days you're feeling blue.
If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own;
A place to find serenity,
A place to be alone.
If I could take your troubles
I would toss them in the sea,
But all these things I'm finding
Are impossible for me.
I cannot build a mountain
Or catch a rainbow fair,
But let me be what I know best,
A friend who's always there
love dawn xx
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